I think I'm having a midlife crisis. I feel stuck. There are so many things I want to change about myself but for some reason I don't change them.
I bore myself.
I frustrate myself.
I am mad at myself.
Of course some of it is the weight, but there are other things, too. My crabbiness. My messiness. My laziness, my lack of ambition or focus.
I usually am not down with the Apostle Paul since he was such an annoying busybody, but this I can relate to: "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do."
2000 years later, I totally get what he was saying.
But on the other hand, it is Commenter Appreciation Day. Honestly, you people make my life worth living. People like Suzanne and Des and even The Angel Apologist. Especially my feed subscribers. 95 of y'all on bloglines - I know that is like a pimple on Dooce's ass, but it is HUGE and happy to me. Bless you all. Thank you. You rock, and I hope you win the lotto but are the good happy kind of lotto winners, not the kind who bankrupt themselves in the first year by giving money to their ungrateful cousins and then spend the rest of their lives in abject misery.