I used to lay awake worrying about my family's health, my job, the economy...
Now I worry about the goverment. Does anyone else have this problem?
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I don't have that problem at all, because I am in TOTAL denial. LaLaLaI'mnotlistening denial. God knows what kind of tailspin I'd be in if I actually stopped and thought about what has happened to this country, and what will continue to happen over the next few years. But that's awfully selfish of me, and unfair to those of you who do worry about it. I'm so sorry it's disturbing your sleep, but I understand.
I'm worried/scared to death about my nephew-who I raised as my own will end up joining the military if he can't get enough money to go to college next year.....and I'm worried that our government will eventually draft him. Plus I'm worried that the government is spying on me and will arrest me just for writing this. I'm worried that someone will read this and call me antimilitary/anti-American EVEN though my own father proudly served for 20 years and his father before him served for 11 and has a purple heart. Does this make me a paranoid freak?
First I was angry, then I became worried, with some hopelessness spinkled in. Now it's a general numb feeling that has taken over (kinda like when you scream in a dream but no one can hear you).
My current sit-bolt-upright-wide-awake issue is the accuracy of Diebold voting machines. Why don't we worry about things like our current hair-style, Suebob?
Um, yeah? Daily? I panic about it sometimes, and tonight at dinner, A. and I got into such a heated discussion that I almost started crying thinking of the lethal combination of Bush and North Korea. Why go on, when there are such horrors?
I lay awake thinking are "they" really paying attention to what "they" are supposed to pay attention to or are "they" just fighting over Rumsfeld? Should he stay or should he go....?
Whatever "they" are thinking about, it's not about "us."
So, fuck it.
I read an AP article the other day that said some soldiers are being denied the clearance neccessary to go overseas and fight and possibly die in this travesty of a war because they are in too much debt.
There are times when I hang on every news report and then there are others when I just shut down and can't take anymore.
I guess there is only so much that I can handle.
This next sentence sounds totally horrible... but between me, my kids, my husband, and the rest of my family, there is always some other crisis that affects me so much more.
Often I sit there cynically thinking that there are large number of people here who deserve what we have. But then I remember how many of us out here try our best to be good citizens and understand issues and respect each other, etc. It kills me.
It was so bad in the summer of 2004 that I went into therapy. Didn't help, although I am finding ways to cope with it a bit more.
Yes, I worry deeply. I am so angry at times that a man who has f...ked up everything he has ever done in his life has now done it again and is dragging the whole damn country (and a part of the world) down with him. And frankly I am quite worried that the reason Bush isn't concerned with how history will wind up viewing him is because he intends to end history (and by that I mean the humanity) on his way out the door. Of course, this will all be be in keeping with his sense of god-ordained power.
So every day I give thanks for what I have and remind myself that this life truly has been one hell of a ride. And if I am granted another day I will live like there is no tommorrow and farm like I will live forever.
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I don't have that problem at all, because I am in TOTAL denial. LaLaLaI'mnotlistening denial. God knows what kind of tailspin I'd be in if I actually stopped and thought about what has happened to this country, and what will continue to happen over the next few years. But that's awfully selfish of me, and unfair to those of you who do worry about it. I'm so sorry it's disturbing your sleep, but I understand.
Oh hell, I've given up worring about it. Now I'm just waiting it out and occasionally making jokes.
I sometimes have bad dreams about the government, the elections and other things like that.
My poor husband thinks I need help.
You're not alone.
I'm worried/scared to death about my nephew-who I raised as my own will end up joining the military if he can't get enough money to go to college next year.....and I'm worried that our government will eventually draft him. Plus I'm worried that the government is spying on me and will arrest me just for writing this. I'm worried that someone will read this and call me antimilitary/anti-American EVEN though my own father proudly served for 20 years and his father before him served for 11 and has a purple heart. Does this make me a paranoid freak?
yup. 24/7 I'm thinking about it. Which makes sense if you know me in real life, but yes. It's bothersome.
First I was angry, then I became worried, with some hopelessness spinkled in. Now it's a general numb feeling that has taken over (kinda like when you scream in a dream but no one can hear you).
My current sit-bolt-upright-wide-awake issue is the accuracy of Diebold voting machines. Why don't we worry about things like our current hair-style, Suebob?
Oh, you betchum! I don't lose much sleep since I know they will do what they'll do ~ but that doesn't mean I like it.
Thailand Gal
~*~*~
Uh huh. Sucks.
Me too... unavoidable in the current light.
all the freaking time.
Yes, I do!
Yup. I know what you mean.
So it looks like when I'm awake at 3 a.m. I'll be in good company.
Um, yeah? Daily? I panic about it sometimes, and tonight at dinner, A. and I got into such a heated discussion that I almost started crying thinking of the lethal combination of Bush and North Korea. Why go on, when there are such horrors?
I don't worry so much as despair. But I have hope. The end is near and hopefully the elections will bring about some much needed change.
I lay awake thinking are "they" really paying attention to what "they" are supposed to pay attention to or are "they" just fighting over Rumsfeld? Should he stay or should he go....?
Whatever "they" are thinking about, it's not about "us."
So, fuck it.
I read an AP article the other day that said some soldiers are being denied the clearance neccessary to go overseas and fight and possibly die in this travesty of a war because they are in too much debt.
Do with that bit of information what you will.
God bless America.
TS
There are times when I hang on every news report and then there are others when I just shut down and can't take anymore.
I guess there is only so much that I can handle.
This next sentence sounds totally horrible... but between me, my kids, my husband, and the rest of my family, there is always some other crisis that affects me so much more.
Often I sit there cynically thinking that there are large number of people here who deserve what we have. But then I remember how many of us out here try our best to be good citizens and understand issues and respect each other, etc. It kills me.
It was so bad in the summer of 2004 that I went into therapy. Didn't help, although I am finding ways to cope with it a bit more.
Yes, I worry deeply. I am so angry at times that a man who has f...ked up everything he has ever done in his life has now done it again and is dragging the whole damn country (and a part of the world) down with him. And frankly I am quite worried that the reason Bush isn't concerned with how history will wind up viewing him is because he intends to end history (and by that I mean the humanity) on his way out the door. Of course, this will all be be in keeping with his sense of god-ordained power.
So every day I give thanks for what I have and remind myself that this life truly has been one hell of a ride. And if I am granted another day I will live like there is no tommorrow and farm like I will live forever.
Thank you, all. I don't know why, but it makes me feel better to know that I am not alone.
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