Looking back at my last few posts, I realize I talk about church a lot. I hope that doesn't freak you out. It would freak ME out, if I were a reader.
I would be thinking, hey, Suebob seems pretty nice, what is SHE doing going to church?
I grew up prejudiced against church people. Yes, I grew up in an aggressively agnostic family.
People who went to church were looked upon as being somewhat defective, as if they were just simpletons or dupes or people who couldn't keep it together on their own, so they adopted God as a fall-back to cover up their own failings.
I know it may seem weird to those of you who grew up in religious families and who were taught that the "unchurched" were to be scorned and pitied.
But believe me, we weren't going to be scorned and pitied without doing some scorning back. We don't go down easy in my family.
I'm not joking. When I was about 20, I began dating a Catholic young man. I went over to his house, saw the crucifix on the wall, and almost fled. I thought "But he seemed so nice!" Obviously I had been mistaken. He wasn't nice, he was religious.
It took me a while to realize one could be both, because, until that point, I hadn't seen much evidence of that.
The first church I fell into was the one I still belong to. They hooked me in with their new age bookstore and kept me with the singing.
I don't think I would have stayed - strike that, I know I wouldn't have stayed - if they weren't liberal, gay-friendly, and not so much on the Bible.
Over the years, I have drifted in and out of my church. Some years more, some years less. But in my sect, there's no guilt about that. Or about anything else. If you show up, they love you. If you don't, they love you from afar.
Why did I get so involved this time and become a full-fledged Church Lady, someone who teaches Sunday school, brings snacks, and is secretary of the Board?
Is it because of an overweening need for the Lord in my life? No.
Is it because I am holier than others? No.
I had 2 good reasons for becoming a Church Lady.
1) I needed more people on my team. Joining my church expanded my family in a way. I feel like the people there are really pulling for me and I am doing the same for them. I feel like we are part of a web of caring and have a mutual, unspoken agreement to be there for each other.
2) I wanted to be of more service. Church is an instant outlet for that because they always need help. And helping gives me a happy feeling.
I hope you don't think I am a freak because I am a Church Lady. I can see where that judgement would come from, given that many religious people act like complete and total asshats a lot of the time.
But so do many other people, right?
All I can do to reassure you or the other people that question my involvement is to promise that I'm not judging you and won't try to persuade you to do anything you don't want to do.
I don't care if you're my religion or another religion or any religion at all. I think we are all ok in the sight of God (providing there is a God).
But if you ever want to show up on Sunday morning, I promise to save a cookie for you if it is my snack day.